So, I dunno.
After tonight there’s a part of me that seriously wonders what the hell the point is. Not of life in general, I’m past that stage; not SL, I’ve made peace with the fact that there is no point. No, what I’m talking about is playing music in SL.
Though the more I think about it, the more I think we just won’t play gigs at the Dragon anymore. This one tonight, I planned the whole week around. We were going to have someone from a Big Famous Pub come and listen tonight, and we wanted to get a great crowd to show their support.
One person. ONE PERSON shows up. And I’m glad she did so, and I’m glad for her kind and sympathetic words. The person we planned this damn thing around never showed, wasn’t even online at the time. And I mean I know, people have their RLs, people have their commitments, and on Friday night people have tons of events to spread themselves out over. Still. Talk about discouraging.
It keeps happening lately. I have an idea, I put all this time and effort and love into planning it, and for what?
So, I’m not going to do it anymore.
SL was never meant to be a burdensome unpaid job. I love NF and I love DonPaul, but I’m tired of being the duct tape that holds a (dwindling) handful of people together. Someone else can do it for a while. That goes for this damn festival, too.
Meanwhile we’ll be taking paid in full gigs, attended by audiences, elsewhere.