I want to just start this whole week over again. Reboot. Mulligan. Do-over.
RL desperately needs a ctrl+z.
I don’t regret my actions. Any of them. Some of them have me embarrassed, feeling bare and exposed; some of them hurt like hell; some of them were liberating and exciting; but in all cases I did what I believed was best at the time. Knowing what I know now, I don’t know if I’d do them again. Sometimes hurting is unavoidable. I wish it wasn’t. But it is the way it is.
Overall, I just feel overwhelmed. It’s going to take time to sort it all out and be clear.
It’s like NF is a snowglobe, and this week just picked it up and rattled it around. And it’s going to take time for all the flaky bits to settle into place. Maybe shakeups are a regular, quarterly occurrence. I just wish this one didn’t center around me.
Can we just press the reset button on this week?